Lean on Me!

This week I am all alone in my apartment due to my roommate being gone for a conference. Though we don't see all that much of each other when we are both here, I really miss her. Living by one's self is not fun at all.

I have gotten through yet another week of classes. Whew! It really isn't that bad yet, but I felt strained this week trying to focus on homework and school in general. My heart longed to be elsewhere. Like relaxing on a warm beach, having a dinner date with a good friend, or even just to veg. Ummm, let me remind myself, the time to do all of that ended a couple weeks ago, and the possibility of a warm beach isn't on the horizon until August!

As I sit in my apartment, "all alone", it gives me ample opportunity to evaluate my time and what i do with it. This week as I looked at what I don't want to do, did I complain? Unfortunately, yes. Did I seek God's strength? A little. Not half as much I would have liked to be able to say. "Lean on Me!" He says. "But it's so nice swimming in this mess around me!" I retort. It's almost as if I can see His light shining through the clouds, but I choose to keep my focus on the clouds. Am I afraid of being blinded by His love for me? Are you? I really want to watch Him move those clouds; use those clouds. My problem is letting go of those "tangibles". His love will stop being intangible to us if we would only let Him in.